Well, here we are again. Another year has come to an end. It was quite interesting if I may add. I’ve had a couple of major challenges that were so exhausting mentally to go through. I’ve expanded my comfort zone when it comes to work. I had to do things I have never done before and they don’t fall under my scope of work but they needed to be done. I discovered that I have a knack for Human Resources. It’s very interesting by the way. I met new interesting people. Bonded with a few. And most importantly, our family welcomed two adorable nieces whom I love to pieces. So that was 2012 in a nutshell.
To those who know me they know very well that I like to live my life based on the plans I put for myself. I’ve always been a planner. I like to plan things, what I’m going to do, how I’m going to spend my days, what I’m going to eat. I’m happy that way. I like to have the things I have “control of” under control. Until one day, I decided to let go of everything and just be. I remember that was my resolution for the year 2012. Ironically, I forgot about it, but I have managed to go with the flow for a whole month. No plans whatsoever. I just lived it day in and day out. It felt good and refreshing not worrying about what I should and should not do.
Ultimately, this go-with-the-flow month revealed so many things I miss about myself. One of them is taking risks. It’s been years since I took a bold decision and act on it. For some reason, I thought that securing my future will put my worries about the unknown into rest. Evidently, it didn’t. It made me miserable since I’m stuck in a dead end job. I’m not doing what I love. I realized that when I was attending a conference in Sydney back in May. As I was listening to one of the speakers talking passionately about what they do, a question popped in my head. “Do I see myself working in this field for the next ten years? How about five?” and the answer was NO! As much as I’m proud of what I have accomplished and as much as I’m in love with the idea of the project I’m working on, as much as I hate being stuck doing the same things over and over again. My brain strives on resolving issues, dealing with challenges, setting up goals and plans. And that is the first phase that all projects go through in order to see the daylight. But when things are up and running that is where boredom starts and that is my cue to look for another challenge and learn new things. So I decided to get in touch with my old bold self and announce that I’m planning to leave my job. The reactions I got fall under “what are you going to do instead? Have you secured another job?” category. And man, I can’t say how many concerned conversations I had with my friends.
The way I see it is, since I have nothing to lose what’s the worst thing that could happen? And I know for a fact that change will never occur unless we took charge of our lives and make it happen. I believe it’s unrealistic to want change and not take a risk for it. Heck, I know I want that, but since when life was that easy? It never is. So here’s to 2013, I’m looking forward to you and what you have in-stored for me. I have a gut feeling that it will be wonderful!